My struggle and my climb up the mountain.
The fight of a mind that is unsure of where it wants to go or which direction to take is one of those struggles I face every day. It’s as bad as punching a wall that is a hundred meters thick, it feels pointless sometimes.
There are moments where my mind is filled with things that bother me for days or weeks, fading only slowly. However I know I should let go of those things faster, that is easier said than done for a mind that keeps spinning more and more webs and feels as if you tangle yourself in it.
I’ve been winning my fight against the darkness however, its been another 2 months since my last little setback of doubt and darkness, which only lasted a short period this time around. I had a good 3 months and a bit if clear thoughts before then though so it is an achievement.
I know this isn’t like my usual works of poetry and it isn’t supposed to be, I just wanted to write a regular update on myself. I’ve actually met someone interesting yet maybe a little bit annoying but in a way you kind of miss when it’s gone kind of annoying.
Another thing I’ve been doing recently is thinking about a story, something steam punky perhaps, but it seems it’s still pretty hard for me to write something down in proper story style. (something I might work on) I’m being inspired and learning more about writing by listening more to audiobooks, and there are many different styles of writing so going to do more research!
As for the title of this post, it’s pretty clear I struggle mentally at times, it’s the reason why I started this site/blog thingy in the first place. It’s also to show that you’re not alone out there struggling, that doesn’t mean I don’t think others are struggling worse than me, well aware there are people worse off, but people struggle differently to each other. I do see life like climbing a mountain range instead of just one mountain, there are going to be times where you feel like you hit a peak and then struggle down a bit and slowly climb back up again. Don’t let the current valley bring down the achievements you already have, something I too still have to learn to understand and follow haha!
This is Malekir signing off for the night, take care my friends.